Rain Rain Rain. There is nothing really bad about it, but it would just make me fall into the sentimental mood. Where is could think about what i would really want out of a relationship. The things that i can do, things to say when our eyes meet each other, the feeling is derived and think about the scenarios that i can have with her.Well the rain just gets me thinking, especially for a long period of rain. Every author of a book, evey singer of all times, every instrument player of all popularities will have a time, a mood, a weather, a place for them to have their inspirations lighted up and have ideas flowing through them. the same thing happens to me.
After spending time with this girl, instead of understanding her more, i found out things about myself instead. I found out that i did not have to be the really perfect guy to fit into any of her shoes, i have never found a girl who really wants me to be myself. And understanding me and supporting me for who i am, that is really sort of a wonder to me. This kinder emotion is something that i am not accustomed to.
Whenever i meet this girl, there would always be a smile on her face and that smile is really contagious. To understand the joy it brings when you see a person smiling for you would have to feel it to understand. i believe she thinks that a smile on your face keeps you beautiful, even if you are sad of stuck up. Isn’t a smile becoming a facade? i don’t want a facade, i want the real you. Cry when u are sad, laugh when you are happy.
For this girl there are many pretty things about her, i am not lacking in anything in my life right because of love and that is equal to a girl that i just have to love her for the lifetime. she has to be the right girl. she need not be miss universe. she need not be the winner of grammy awards. she just have to be simple, just the girl-next-door. but, she has to be her. Just a simple girl.
To put it simply the perfect girl of my dreams :
- A girl that trust me completely. im not saying that she would allow me to go out with girls all the time. honestly, i would rather she scold me, hit me, pinch me or whatever, when i go out with girls. instead, the kind of trust i’m talking about, is that she confides her problems, her secrets, everything that she wants to let out to me. only me i would say. Equating this i would be like her diary.
-Previously i would spend money on that person, get them whatever she wants, she would feel loved. But with her its rather the opposite. Because i know i used to have a problem on showing how i love that person, i used money to sub. hmm, this changes the fact after knowing her, specifically her. and money cannot buy her heart.
Well in the end, when i say that i am really planning go far with this girl. In short Je t’aime.
clem